Hurm..motif gambar? it shows me right now. i'm in dilemma. either nak jaga hati orang or jaga hati diri sendiri. Mana paling penting? Nak express my feelings towards something pun tak berani, takut orang berkecil hati...tapi diri sendiri merasa bebannya, merasa tidak selesa merasa..eh senang cakap tak best lah. hue. I hate this quality in me. like seriously. terlalu menjaga hati orang padahal tak puas hati. There's urge to dare to speak up my opinions tapi nak cakap kat orang pasal ketidakpuasan hati memang fikir berkali-kali. have you feel the same? do you think about others more than you think about yourself? ..I really wish I DARE to ....
my thoughts. I'm jealous with one friend. she dare to speak her mind, kalau tak puas hati just straight to the point cakap apa yang dia tak puas hati tanpa kisah pasal orang kecil hati or not. she doesn't really care. She loves herself more. she puts her feelings as her number one list in her priority, samada orang lain terguris or tak, lantakla..yang penting dia jaga hati dia terlebih dahulu. That makes people never take her for granted. tak berani nak naik kepala.. I always say to myself to learn my best to
I have to..to protect myself. I am the one who can take care of my own feelings. I feel the pain.
I'm in dilemma right now. the only hint is I just want my PRIVACY back. that's all..I just don't understand why people do not respect others privacy.
Please la faham.. T.T